Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Patience Really is a Virtue

Patience is a tough thing to grasp. For example, when one is sitting in class and the teacher goes into overtime, it's so much easier to wiggle in one's seat rather than pray for patience. But do the wiggles really solve the problem?

It's Wednesday and as I pulled my limp body from the bed this morning, I thought Let the games begin. I have been waiting for this day for a week now, but it seems like much longer because time has been dragging. Now, my impatience increases. I am awaiting an incredibly important phone call from home that could come anytime from this morning to Friday evening. If the phone call is good news, it's been one that I've been looking foward to for over a year now. If it's bad, I'm crawling back between my covers for the next three days. The phone call could end a year of suffering or continue a time of hardship. The wait has been intensely nerve wracking and starting today, it's only going to get worse.

As a result of this, I've been very wiggly and ansty (more so than normal), and sometimes I have to just get up and walk around my room for a minute. It hit me this morning -- instead of wearing holes in my carpet, maybe I should just look upward and ask the Big Man for some patience. I've heard people say that this really works and for a long time, I didn't believe it. But a few weeks ago, in my English class I got to the point where I just couldn't sit still any longer and there were still fifteen minutes left in class. So, I gave it a whirl and He gave me patience. Actually, He probably doesn't give you patience, but helps us find it when we are overlooking it. Whatever it is, though, it's a tough thing to grasp because being nervous or anxious are our first reactions to times of intense wait, be it the end of class or an important phone call.

So, the next few days will find me on campus somewhere talking out loud to God for patience or sitting in the chapel begging Him to calm me down. And when that phone call comes, I have two intentions for which I've been beseeching God. I hope that whatever happens, it's God's will. God could want nothing less than happiness for us. I also pray that I am around my friends. Until then, however, I will be praying perpetually for patience. It really is a tough virtue.

7 comments:

Justin said...

Whatever that phone call is going to bring, I'm sure it will be God's will. Now, naturally there are those on this Earth who are better at handling God's will when It is shown, but maybe they grow from the experience.

I'm proud of you working so hard on a virtue that I find next to impossible to obtain.

Teddy said...

I am praying God will reward your patience with a beautiful home (outside of Kansas) and a good job for your father!! Love you, girl!!

Justin said...

Well, looks like your patience was richly rewarded. God indeed does work in mysterious ways - it looks as though we may soon be home again in Texas!

Laura said...

Adrienne that is hilarious and stange that you wrote this right before you knew!!! Thank God that
we will be having the chistmas holidays in our own house!!!!

Laura

Adrienne said...

Yes, and soon I will update the blog with a thanksgiving to God and my friends who were so wonderful with their prayers and support. But right now I have a paper, which is yelling foul things at me to get my attention.

Paper said...

FOUL THINGS!!!! FOUL THINGS!!!! FOUL THINGS!!!!!!!

Adrienne said...

Ok, so who is the paper dude?